You could almost call it a "full nights" sleep

I think Miss Eva Whyman knows life is a little (lot) ruff at the moment and has decided to do her bit and help us out, bed at nine last night and awake at just after four is welcome relief.

After a bit of fiddling with Karen's pain relief we are pleased it is now all sorted and the most important thing has been fixed, she is now pain free, there are the ups and downs of increased doses or morphine but it is so much better to see her comfortable and now able to have a few good moments and enjoy a date and rhubarb pie from her mum ably assisted by her dad for artistic flair on the pastry.

From our first date we had always discussed things like death and what we would want, ironic considering how soon we have had to face it but dignified was paramount, we have achieved that and as much as typing this brings tears I also smile remembering over a glass of wine in Syracuse a restaurant in Melbourne just over two years ago Karen saying exactly that.

As the days go by I appreciate each and every moment we are able to share for there will not be many more, heart breaking to say the least.