It is a relief to say the least, to be able to have a change of scene, spend time with Sam, Janine and Archie and share memories and moments of Karen whilst Eva goes to sleep as normal at 7 and as normal until 7 the next morning.
She really is a star.
Eva amazes me every day, last night was more than just disrupted but I still managed to hit the 7pm bus bed time and like the star she is I woke her at 7am, Tizzie Hall and the team at Save Our Sleep you have made my life so much easier, THANK YOU.
We were just hoping to avoid doctors and hospitals for a while, especially as Harrogate hospital was where it all started to go wrong last December, never mind.
So if there wasn't enough to do each day I now have to bath Eva, cover her in paraffin, then a layer top and bottom of damp tights, then a layer of dry and twice daily, its called wet wrapping, man alive sometimes the hardest thing is just accepting life isn't easy, it would be good to be given a break for a change though.
But at least it can be treated and after being thrown right out of her routine today tonight will really show how good she really is, a full nights sleep once again I am sure.
It seems like only yesterday Karen was here sharing every moment and the hardest thing is her not being here to share in the pride and love for Eva, I give Eva enough for both of us but I can never be Karen and even though Eva only new her mum for a while she felt how incredibly special she was. I just wish Karen was here to see her daughter grow and develop, she is so amazing in every way, I hope that where she is now she can at least see and feel the miracle we created.
A visit from friends Craig, Janine and Rory Pitt who are here for a few days makes me feel very lucky and very special to have such great people to call friends, a huge thank you.
Needless to say she seemed to like it.
It goes without saying but such special moments without Karen!
We went to the gym that Karen was a member of which was more than fitting and a few tears were had to be going for Eva's first swim without mum is heart breaking.
I hope to have some days soon when I don't shed a few tears, we listened to so much music that so many songs associate so memories, beautiful songs and beautiful memories, I would give anything for them to be beautiful moments we are having right now and for an eternity.
Help, is it ok to take Eva swimming now, if so any advice other than waterproof nappies and just do it, also do you need to shower or bath her afterwards?
It won't be the same without her but she would be disappointed if we did not.
