You could almost call it a "full nights" sleep

I think Miss Eva Whyman knows life is a little (lot) ruff at the moment and has decided to do her bit and help us out, bed at nine last night and awake at just after four is welcome relief.

After a bit of fiddling with Karen's pain relief we are pleased it is now all sorted and the most important thing has been fixed, she is now pain free, there are the ups and downs of increased doses or morphine but it is so much better to see her comfortable and now able to have a few good moments and enjoy a date and rhubarb pie from her mum ably assisted by her dad for artistic flair on the pastry.

From our first date we had always discussed things like death and what we would want, ironic considering how soon we have had to face it but dignified was paramount, we have achieved that and as much as typing this brings tears I also smile remembering over a glass of wine in Syracuse a restaurant in Melbourne just over two years ago Karen saying exactly that.

As the days go by I appreciate each and every moment we are able to share for there will not be many more, heart breaking to say the least.

Just in case

Thank you all so much for your emails and words of support, I apologise for not responding to each of them individually but please know we read each and everyone of them together and take strength from your words.

The path ahead for Karen is growing short and my updates maybe a little erratic and quite possibly not even make sense but once again thank you for your emails and messages it helps us more than you know.

A new home

Thought you all might like this, surprised Karen even let me take it.

If you would have seen Karen this morning you would have felt as we did, that she wouldn't last the day, so we have done well that she is now in the hospice and finally they have the pain under control, this morning scared the hell out of us and made us realise how little time we have left!

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Karen & Catherine

Visitors from afar

Our friends Catherine and Trevor came visiting, it was so special for us both to spend time with them, even better to hear the accents of home.

Thanks again it was so good to see you and the Byron Bay cookies were superb.

An update

Karen had her ultrasound this morning and long story short there is not much fluid so nothing worth draining, it would appear that the growth is simply cancer, bluntly I am shattered.

The path forward becomes even less clear, we are hoping to get Karen back to the hospice ASAP and make the most of the time ahead.

:-(